I can’t figure it out- I hope my family reads this.
Okay, so I don’t even know who I’m talking to anymore but I’ve been basically trying to get my life together, and the more I kind of come to an even keel with people- the more I realize Tiffany has like really bad personal problems.
I remember when I was was way younger- like, way way younger. They were kind of like Tiffany has no common sense. Like she can’t drive well, can’t focus, not that much in reality, probably doesn’t participate or compete that well. Just whatever- has a lot of problems.
And I always felt like my family didn’t like me that much, not like the absolute concept of ME, but like my own energy or the karma I brought to the group. So like why is that one person always so like helpless, or like why is that one person always like causing so much drama, or much chaos. Why are we giving so much money to that one person when all they did was waste, or they never have like any family values to just do like basic stuff-
so like call someone back, tell someone you love them, show up for Christmas. Just be a more down to earth person?
So then I started realizing the hard way-when I kind of got like really down and out, like what was so bad about me. Cause I always had like one of those “WORSE THAN COMPLEXES”.
Which means that no matter what, no matter where she goes, Tiffany is always like the worse person. So like worse than Hitler. Everything is in absolutes. And I remember- I was like why did I think that… And I was like it’s because of Tiffany’s like energy levels, or her karma, so her like ability to form an absolute concept about herself is just like way way- OFF.
So I was like okay, so why is Tiffany worse than Hitler? And I was like it’s because Tiffany like can’t countertransfer her energy or something.
So like she’s too inert, or doesn’t understand other people. So while like Hitler may be a bad person, he actually would be able to go out and make a sublimation of himself- so like I did some bad things but not others. Or I took over the world, and people respect my power, or I controlled some people. But I was actually able to project some sort of command, and power and intelligence for myself like no matter what died.
And people kind of came back to earth when I died, so like whatever. Hitler was kind of crazy- or he kind of fit a profile- but he like wasn’t a bad person overall—- because people just like aren’t split like that. Like nobody goes around beating Hitler upside the head with Hitler. You know right? It just like doesn’t make any sense.
You’re you- so whole. And your actions are good and bad depending on what they do.
So in every situation she’s in, it’s like not supposed to be Tiffany being the bad person, bad person, bad person. Just keep treating people like shit.
So while Hitler may be bad overall- the difference between Hitler and Tiffany.. is like with Tiffany- that’s like her actual EGO.
She didn’t snap out of it enough. And I remember people would always be just like- yeah she’s just a really uncomfortable person.. or I don’t really like to be around her, makes me feel negative. Always bringing people down..Just whatever. Or just kind of like why is the vibe around that chic always so negative. It almost feels like it’s her KARMA, or her energy. Hitler doesn’t project a bad KARMA.
I guess I just didn’t listen that much. Anyway, —— to be continued.
STUPID- other stuff you need to talk about.
-Why you keep getting fired from work.
-Why nobody likes you
-Why it always feel like you’re never dealing with a REAL person-
-What you might want to do with yourself.
-Why you’re not well-developed person- everyone just talks a bunch of shit about you behind your back…
AND…..
THE VERY SERIOUS CONCEPT OF
“LEARNED HELPLESSNESS
